Sunday, December 31, 2006

2007 is almost here...YAY!!!

I am so excited for this year to get here. 2006 was really rocky. There were lots of good moments this year, but overall I have been really feeling discontent with where I am at in life. I have decided to take this discontentment and refocus my energies on the things I can change in my life. I want 2007 to be a year of pursual. I want to pursue success in my job. i want to pursue gaining relationships in my life. I want to pursue a better life for myself. I want to pursue God and what He has for me. I am not completely sure where to start in my pursuit of these things, but I am confident in what I want. I know that I want to take life by the horns and live it to the fullest! Bye bye 2006...its been swell.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Time for Reflection

I borrowed this incredible book from a friend of mine called "The Traveler's Gift". It has to be one of the best books I have read in such a long time. The premise of the book is the main character is beyond the end of his rope and is taken through some pivotal points in history, and learns some great life lessons from key people in the past. These lessons have been hitting home with me. One theme that has hit me over the head like a ton of bricks is being a person of decision and following the dream in your heart even when it doesn't make sense to those around you. I've allowed doubt in my dreams to creep in my heart. I've allowed myself to listen to the people in my life that want me to do something stable and safe in my life. I've allowed stress and worry to cloud my judgement and its caused me to lose the dream in my heart and the motivation behind it.
I desire to become unstoppable once again. I desire to once again truly care about what I do and why I do it. I don't want my vision to continue to be clouded by the day to day worries in life.
I really plan on taking this week to regroup and focus on the things that matter most.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Time to get organized

Its the time of the year when I have a few days to get organized. Life gets so crazy that papers pile up and suddenly my desk is throwing up and it drives me batty. I have enough to do to keep my busy and not thinking about my family on the other side of the country this Christmas. The busy work will be a great distraction. But the funny thing is that once this week is over...I will once again feel completely at peace being so many miles away from them. Oh the wretched month of December.
The past week I've been thinkng about how much this year has flown by, but this month seems to be dragging on. I have been under an unbelievable amount of stress. Life has been a huge struggle for survival and challenges have been around every bend. I know that challenges are suppose to give you strength and reveal your true character. I also grew up believing that God would never give you a great burden than you can handle, but right now I have to admit that I think He's just being a big meanie. I want so much to believe that there is a purpose the for trials that life brings and I want to believe that trials are meant to bring you closer to God, but I'm not experiencing that. Bitterness has been planted in my soul and I have to admit to you that it is growing roots. Those roots need to be plucked before I can't see the way back. What I need is a break. A light at the end of the tunnel...a steady upswing...something that lets me know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God will provide for my needs.
So, I just had to get that out. I really am looking forward to this time of relaxing and getting refocused.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

and the hits keep coming....

Ok...not really. :) Its the end of another week in life. Pretty mellow week except for being frustrated with people that just don't know what the word gratitude means. I could go on about that, but I know you guys know what it means to be grateful for the people in your life that help get you where you are. need to spout off on that soapbox. What I do completely love is those people that are grateful! Those individuals that see your hard work for them and continue to let you know about that. Those people motivate me to no end! I also love it when people look at seemingly impossible situations and have a "can do" attitude! I really do look up to those people and want to work alongside them to help them reach their goals.
I had a burst of the Christmas spirit today. Put up some lights and decorations around the house. I still need to find my other decorations. It seems like every year its harder and harder to get in the spirit of things...but once I force myself to do it, it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside. :)

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