Heart Transplant

This is what I've feel that I've gotten...
For so long I've struggled with "the funk". I've gone through life dreary, trying to do things on my own. Trying to hold onto a relationship with God that I really haven't been sure I've wanted, but I've wanted to want it. I've struggled with making decisions and then actually taking the action to follow through with them.
Last month I had an amazing week in Seattle with my BFF and through that week, I saw a life that I could have...a life that I want, but have been missing out on. After returning home and decompressing from my time away, I realized once again that I have squandered away too much time. Something finally clicked and I am putting my realizations into action and actually making the changes necessary to get my life back.
On the Spiritual side of life, I've committing to not starting my work day until I've spent time in prayer and the bible. It has really amazed me how coming back to this habit is truly lifting my heart and I'm not feeling as dark as I have been. People have always said that when God seems far away, its because you moved...that He is always there waiting to hang out with us. I've seen that truth in my life so much the past couple weeks. I'm so grateful for that and humbled.
Another change that I'm making in my life is to eat right and work out again. I have a massive amount of me that needs to disappear and I am believing that if I can stick with ridding myself of sugar and white bread/flour and eating more dark veggies, and protein that I will be where I need to be before I turn 35 next year. I'm starting with a pretty drastic change in how I eat and after I reach my first goal, I will start re-introducing more of the foods that I like...but healthier (like whole wheat flour/pasta). I'm also working out about every other day...its a great way to end the day and decompress. I will keep track of my progress on here..but so far I'm feeling so much better and feel like I have real energy.
Change is happening and I like it!