Saturday, September 30, 2006

On a happier note..

In 2 weeks I start my travel season for work! I am so ready to get out of town and this year I am actually going to 3 cities that I've never been to before! My journey starts 2 weeks from today when I go to Dallas for 4 days!

What does loyalty mean to you?

This week has been full of ups and downs. Its been emotionally draining beyond belief. Many times all I've been able to think or say is "I don't know". As you know (or don't know yet), I work with bands. Musicians are extremely introverted and more times than not will keep their feelings to themselves. Then, it seems out of nowhere will just say they are not happy and that you are not doing a good job and they want to leave the relationship. I am a person that takes things very personally. I know I should allow these things to roll off of me, but I don't. I just think about all that I should have done (even if there is nothing more I could have done). I think about how I've failed. It makes me question my abilities and whether or not I'm doing what I should be doing in a career. Ultimately though, it makes me angry. I am a very loyal person. If you are one of my people, I'll go to bat for you no matter what. I don't understand how other people don't have this trait. I don't understand how many people seem to just be about themselves and what is best for them no matter how it may hurt others. Or maybe it is that I'm just jealous that other people have the ability to screw others and I seem to always get bitten back when I try to do what is best for me no matter who I screw. So, is loyalty a long forgotten trait? Have you experienced loyalty in those around you? Are there things we should do to perserve the notion of loyalty?

Thursday, September 21, 2006

My heritage

Ok..so I have to say this made my day...

Who wouldn't want to look like these girls. I found this fun face recognition program on http://www.myheritage.com .
This week has flown by. Nothing too exciting. I start traveling for my job in less than a month and I can't wait!!! 4 cities in 6 weeks...its gonna be a blast.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

one of my pet peeves....

Is people that think they know everything! Arrogant, control freaks really rub me the wrong way. (ok...so, maybe I am a little bit of a control freak too) I understand this concept that seems to be unknown to some people called respect. When you walk into someone's house...you don't start ripping their stuff apart. You don't tell the person everything they should have done. You don't take over if you are a guest. I LOVE my house. I've worked hard to have nice things and to decorate it on my budget with my taste. I LOVE my large kitchen..maybe I'm really becoming an adult because I used to never care about having a big kitchen, but now that was a huge selling point. I LOVE my dog and the fact that she barks at strangers and that she barks to welcome me home. It makes me feel safe. Yeah, so when you meet someone for the first time...don't start digging. Its not appropriate. Respect the person. Get to know them and gain their trust and their ear. You dont' know everything.
I need to figure out how to tastefully make my feelings known. This person is probably going to be at my house a lot as its a friend of the rooms. Really...have I mentioned that sometimes I really don't like people. :)

Friday, September 08, 2006

The roomie is coming this weekend

I found a roommate. I am currently NOT looking forward to having someone else living here. I've been living by myself for the last 2 years and I have loved it. I can do what I want, when I want, how I want. I know that I NEED to have someone else here to help with my finances, but I'm pretty apprehensive right now. She keeps talking about wanting to make sure she feels like this is HER home; wanting people over, putting stuff all over, etc. To a point I have no problem with that, but I want to make sure that I still feel at home too. I hope she is respectful. This girl is a stranger to me. I've done the roommate thing before...I've had some amazing experiences and some nightmares. I hope this is more of an amazing experience and less of a nightmare.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Yippee! I'm done!!!

My weekend was a success! All unpacked and sorted. My storage closet outside is packed to the gills! I found a box that I've had in storage for a few years and I went through it yesterday. It was filled with old binders of letters, journals, and papers that date back to 6th grade. What a fun trip down memory lane. I'm so thankful that I held onto that stuff. I was able to really get perspective reading some stuff that I wrote when I was 12-13 (the things that went on in my head...oy). Finding those treasures really reinforced how great it is to look back on life and see what you've overcome and learned. And now with blogging, all of you get to go through this with me.
So, I'm still looking for a roommate and I hope to find that person this week. I've been pretty stressfree about bills and stuff since I've moved, but last night the stress started to creep back in. I couldn't sleep through the night. I don't like that feeling. Last week was so refreshing. Each night I slept and woke up without any back pain...it was pretty close to heaven. I need to really have as little stress in my life as possible...I am seeing how severely it has been affecting my health. So what do you guys do to de-stress? Any relaxation tips?

Friday, September 01, 2006

Woo Hoo...Its September!!!

I'm in my new condo! I've shoved all the boxes in the spare room, so I don't have them staring me in the face. This weekend I plan on getting them tackled! Even with the boxes, things are really coming together. Its so pretty...I feel much more relaxed and I've been sleeping a lot better this week. I really hope this is the beginning of a less stressful existence. I am STILL trying to find a person to rent my spare room. Its difficult to find someone that is a good fit.
I did have one piece of excitement that I NEVER want to have again. On Wednesday I was getting ready to go out with a friend and I went into my living room and the front door was wide open and my dog was nowhere to be found. My heart stopped. I looked all throughout my neighborhood..had friends and neighbors looking for her and she was not appearing. We all searched for an hour and it was starting to get dark. I had pretty much decided that I would get up in the morning and call the animal shelter and see if someone had found her. I was devastated. Just as I was pulling out of the parking lot, I spotted 2 boys..one of them was carrying a fuzzy, black thing. I yelled out my dog's name and there she was. She had actually made it to the next neighborhood over. I was sooo relieved. The thought of losing her had ripped me apart. After letting her know how bad it was to leave...I have spent the rest of the week spoiling her. I never want to go through that again.
And to all my new blog readers...I'm so glad to have met you guys. Thanks for stopping by my little corner of cyberspace!!!
 

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